I haven’t been feeling up to par this past 2 weeks so my postings have taken the back seat. All my energy has been pooled into just getting through the day with some shred of self respect and not having an outburst that I will regret later.
It’s been up and down and when it’s down its been this simmering, combustible anger directed at everyone for any reason and I know it’s all me and not them. And my family bears the brunt of it and it makes me sick to my stomach.
Then I feel tearful and clingy and I just know everyone is conspiring against me. Everyone sees my flaws and hates me and I find it hard just to get out of bed.
Then there are days like today where I get this sudden burst of antsy energy and I’m damn near bouncy. Colors are brighter and I can think a little clearer and I have to make a conscience effort not to talk as much as I want and slow down when I do.
It’s a roller coaster at a theme park I didn’t buy a ticket for and I just want to get off the rides. But as they keep telling me, it will even out. It will get better. And in some ways it is. But when I get stopped dead in my tracks, trying for just a little traction, it’s frustrating as shit.
So posts will be back soon. I just gotta get a handle on all this first.
Happy Crafting All!
I am in love with this sweater! Super sophisticated and cozy. I needs must make one.
Free pattern courtesy of www.allaboutami.com and even has pictures so noobs like me can make it happen! So thoughtful!
It’s true. I’m black. Not sure where he was going with that line of questioning.
There he is, my dear sweet rescue kitty photobombing the shit out of what was supposed to be a nice pic of the hat I finished a week ago. Ahhh…lookit that face! I can’t be mad at him! The fuzzy wuzzy baby head! But seriously, here’s the hat I finished.
I love this funfetti yarn from Hobby Lobby! It’s like the cake and just as soft and fluffy! I will be using it a lot more of it every chance I get.
Me as a kawaii crochet hook.
I had the kind of weekend where I couldn’t focus my attention but I had too much mental energy and my body felt like a wet rag. I couldn’t crochet. It wasn’t peaceful and that was concerning in itself. I tried doing something else creative from my bin of creativity but that felt empty too. Just felt like I was spinning my wheels and my brain wouldn’t level out.
I hate days like that.
But I did rediscover Phil Collin’s No Jacket Required CD. So that’s something I guess.
Have you seen this??? Apparently Boye wants us ready for anything! I suppose it does beat carting around different hooks but I wonder if you could actually comfortably use something like this?
I checked Amazon and they aren’t currently available with no reviews. Not sure if they didn’t do well or are extremely popular…
I peed I just laughed so hard! This is the cutest most original baby hat I’ve seen in a long time! You can bet your sweet patootie I’ll be trying this one out!
Free pattern on Googiemomma.blogspot.com! How nice is that?